day seven: four turn off's

oh hey, i'm alive. and back. y'know a whole lotta stuff went down over the last few months that had my mind spinning....and so blogging here wasn't exactly the first thing on my mind. but i won't bore you with all that jazz! (if you're super interested in reading about it, check out my personal blog here. there are a few posts that are just music...you can just scroll on past those.)

this is a weird one, it's difficult to pick out turn offs. it's not exactly something i think about all that often....and it took a while to write. (definitely not the couple/few months it's been since i posted, sosupersorry!)

let's just jump right in shall we??

one: saying i apologize instead of i'm sorry.
i apologize, to me, says either you don't care or you're not taking responsibility.  you are acknowledging that yes, something happened, but you aren't taking ownership pr responsibility of the issue. i just think that if you're going to say sorry, if you're going to apologize, then you should mean it. and if you don't mean it, well then don't say it. i can't explain exactly what it is, but man it sure drives me bonkers.

two: lack of having or showing appreciation/gratitude.
i am a giver. i enjoy doing things for people and making their lives that much easier. i like making people smile, laugh, feel loved, or just feel that little bit of their burden lifted. be it cleaning, cooking, running errands, sending cute little mushy messages, what have you. i like doing it. i love helping people. i never expect anything in return, i do it because i care. however, never being thanked kinda burns me out. and makes me wonder if what i did even helped them out. in coming to that realization, i always always always do whatever i can to make sure people know i am grateful for every little thing they do for me. even if it's as small as getting me a drink. (though, i admit, i have a really super hard time accepting gifts.)

three: being super negative. about everything. all the time.
i get that bad things happen, and sometimes, you just need to vent. or you need a pity party. and baby, i'll throw one with you. but every moment being negative kills me. i'm super empathetic, maybe too much for my own good. and i'm not sure if that is why, but moods rub off on me. literally. if you're grumpy or upset, within 30 minutes of being around you, by golly, i will be too. so i need peppy, happy people here.

four: being closed off completely or unwilling to communicate.
nothing is more frustrating to me. i talk. and i plan. and if i can't talk or plan with people in my life i go bonkers. true story. c.r.a.z.y. dude. i need to talk, i need to talk often. about everything that is going on in my brain (you'd be surprised how much that really is)